“Though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no love. Oh my smile, my mind reassure me, I don’t need no one. Woke up this morning with my mind set on loving me.”
-Jamila Woods “Holy”
I’ve grown weary. Weary of doing the “same old thing.” It was like I’ve grown tired of the same habitual routine and I desperately wanted to change. This “itch” happened towards the middle of Spring Semester ’17 and carried on towards the middle of the summer. I continuously found myself not feeling certain things that used to bring me joy. I used to enjoy hanging out with friends until 3am; I made it my goal to be in bed by 12am. I didn’t mind giving my attention to others whenever they needed me; I longed to be alone. Completing my ‘To Do’ list was always my daily goal; my ‘To Do’ list started to become a bother. I used to have a huge appetite for food; I barely ate anything. And if I did go eat, I would take two bites and throw away my meal. I would give God my time; I barely got down on my knees and prayed. Dating was enjoyable; I didn’t care for it anymore (still don’t).
My mind, body, and spirit were shutting down. I tried to keep going, but my being kept rejecting it all. Talking to my friends was difficult; I didn’t really know how to explain it. I felt as if my parents wouldn’t understand. As time passed, my life was suffocating and if I continued to live like that, I would lose it completely.
It is important to pay attention to your temple. Your inner self. You’re important. And you most certainly matter. But when you ignore the most vital cores within you, you begin to lose balance. Think of yourself as a well. A well is filled with an abundance of water. When the well is running dry, you must refill it, right? That’s essentially the same case with you. I became so overwhelmed in my life, that I forgot about the most important person in my life: me. I began to change and I didn’t know how to react to it. I never gave myself time to reflect, to replenish my being, to support myself, and to confront myself when needed be. No wonder my well was running dry. Go figure.
Whether you’ve been through this period in your life or if you are experiencing it now, below are a few steps on how to channel your inner glow and revive yourself:
- Prioritize yourself daily – Prioritizing yourself isn’t selfish and whoever makes you feel bad for putting yourself first don’t need to be around you. Do whatever you need to make yourself comfortable. Meaning, solitude. Be by yourself sis, you can do it.
- Set boundaries – That means with people and spaces. If it ain’t healthy, why are you around it?
- Reflect – Reflect on yourself, your space, and the people you put yourself around with. Are you comfortable? Is there anything you’d like to improve in yourself?
- Revive Your Spiritual Relationship – If you’re spiritual, try to revive your spiritual relationship. Look for inspiration that can refuel that spiritual core within you.
- Be Honest With Yourself – Lying to yourself won’t get you anywhere, so face harsh realities within yourself and try to fix old habits or doings that don’t make you content.
Take the time to find your inner joy and incorporate it into your daily life. You never know how far it’ll take you mentally, emotionally, physically, and/or spiritually.
Until next time,